You have an affliction. You have watched motor racing for a long time, you have been to some races, you may have even done autocross or track days.
You just wanted a taste!
You merely wanted to see what it was like, being in a fast car on the track. Without the hassles of expenses, equipment, licenses, with a controlled risk. You figured that would be enough, but NO! all you have been doing is feeding a desire that cannot be quenched.
You want to be a race car driver!
Join the club, there are loads of people who want to.... but for one reason or another they do not go any further. So literally go join the club...any club (or organization).
It took me years to become actively involved in racing and I wish I had done it earlier, I have recently decided that I need to get my competition license.
The perfect time will never just arrive, you have to make it happen.